Chrictmas SOOOONN!!!!..

Sweet spring showers bring a fragrant bouquet
A soft wind blows and meadowlarks play
The pine covered hillside wild creatures reside
A season of growth as you reach for the sky.

Through long summer days you sit parched and brown
Your needles fall softly and cover the ground
The struggle so mighty the rewards seem so few
But from such despair a strong pine tree grew.

Now the days they grow short there’s a chill in the air
Changes are coming a fate we all share
The birds now seek cover in your boughs lush and green
Autumn winds are upon you it’s now time to dream.

You wear a white mantle as snow covers the ground
The song of the saw and soon you fall down
Was the struggle in vain for a seedling to grow
You’ll soon bask in splendor your purpose to know.

To be lifted once more in a glorious light
The spirit of Christmas you embody tonight
Decked out in splendor your time has now come
To herald the birth of God’s loving son.

Starting to pack Alpha camp stuff le...lots to pack nia...

If I'm not wrong,there's some misunderstanding in between,but now i know,is Jon...so i'll just tell him how come all of us cannot go...anyway,tough day yesterday...hmmm...

Maybe I'm too sensitive over everything,no surprising...
cause environment...
I just hope she would hear my explanation,at least I can clear something in my heart?
But we all need some time,so for the time-being,I'll just wait.

FOR ALL I CARE,HATE ME!!!
CAUSE I NO LONGER CARE!!!
I REALLY NOT WORTH TO BE YOUR FRIEND,AREN'T I?
SO YUPP,HATE ME;DO ANYTHING TO ME TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER!

Am I wrong?

How come I'm always the troublemaker in my clicks?
You think I'm always like this,then you really don't know me.
Seriously.
Sometimes I feel uncomfortable being with you,you know why??You are always so demanding!
I'm already quite moody today morning,for tomorrow is my mum's anniversary...
Serene was quite pissed off yesterday because I actually supposed to go gym with her but end up canceling the appointment with her.
The she say if i go for today's shopping spree,she wont feel so pissed off
And now she waned to break friendship with me.
I'm a failure,aren't I?
If this time's break is real,I'll be very upset for now I'm crying,but Viv said it's not worth crying for YOU

My elder cousin sis,my brother and my aunt on a slay

My brother and the reindeer.
My younger cousin sis and my brother on a slay.
My brother...
My brother acting stupid...
My younger cousin and older cousin...
My older cousin and her mum;my aunt...
cheese!!my older cousin and my aunt wiht my brother =)
Happy face!!!
Reindeer brothers!!!
My brother :)
My cousin brother,my older & younger cousin sis,me and my brother.
Sisters forever!
My younger cousin and my brother.
My cousin brother,my older & younger cousin sis,me and my brother.
My older&younger cosuin sis,my brother and me!
Three sisters!My brother,LBJ!

We movie yesterday,Madagascar 2:Escape To Africa...My cousin brother;YangDa,her sis;my younger cousin;Nissi,my older cousin;RuiQi,my aunt,my brother and me.Took many photos before going up to watch movie...The arrangement of the sitting was:me on the right-hand corner,beside me was Jie RuiQi,then my brother,then my aunt,Nissi and lastly YangDa..The ovie was touching,funny...characters were adorable as well =)

Dont know what to write leh!!!
haha...

hihi
back to post...it's een quite long since I POST
Just now when I reach the doorstep,I sudddenlt thought of something.No one is welcoming me home,usually my mother wil do so,so everythng came ack again...Memories just wont erase,just like you have to face your own life.

Being a senior of Sec1s,I had to do a great job though I wasnt the Team Leader.First day I really had no mood to do all stuff.My group had Lau YeWei,that ___...& Qing Yang,suay-suay with them nia :(...We were all waiting to be classified into groups,that period was the most boring thing that I 've done so.I mean is like I hate it this way!Qing Yang & that stupid YeWei keep sayng me "fierce woman"...damn it!nvm,humoruus but irritatng.Seriously!,They can do so but not overboard.Meet new friends along the way & I really got to know them well.My group was terribly quiet."Smurfs" is our major group name of Team7&8.I got to know this,JiaXin;she was also from SVPS!So happy about it!Herman too!

I wrote stuff on my reflection book but I cant really rmb what I've wrote.Yesterday we had nght walk(as usual),but this time,it was the senior who planned this night walk.I team up with YuFeng,Juffri,JiaXin&myself.We were the last four teams to carry our journeys.First stop,we went to the 6th floor from the D&T stairs.When walk near the toilet o that level,a pon-thai-na suddenly came out!I screamed to my lungs could take.I ran,but was caught,second time i fall down and was caught by her again,so I really was scared after that.Then we went 4th floor it was nothing much,we went out of the lift cause this senior told us to.So we walk to the jnior block,another senior told us that it's not this way.So we went back to the lft,Inside was a smiling senior pon-thai-na.She did not scare us,in fact,we shoo her out...hehehe...funny...the second & third pon-thai-na that made me go bersek was one on the way to the auditrium's back door & another on the senior's block level 5.But the one that alost made me cry is the third one,at the auditorium.I ran &ran until I stop at the lift of second floor,I couldnt take it so I ran.One senior came forward to ask if I'm ok,I didnt reply him & just ran back to fnd Juffri they all.F___ sia!

After the night walk,we had to sit down & discuss our cheers.Yesterday night also,but it was task from Ms. Chong,to modify each and everyone of us' cheer.

I dreamt of being caught back right into the house again,by my parent's guards!
That was fifth time I was caught,after they caught me,I went to a corner and cry hard,I was fuming mad,mad until my tears start dropping;that's why I went to a corner to cry.In my dream,my dad told the security something,if I'm not wrong he requested for higher level security...It was like "O Man!~"Cant believe that I would be trap again...The reason for my escape is because I wanted to be like my friends that I've just met in my own house.She worked her in my house,(forget to tell you,my house is as big as a resort.)her duty was to keep me company,while clean my room.We were like close friends,we chat anything and everything under the sun.As I wasnt allowed to get out of the house,she brings in many hometown stuff to make me feel better.She saw me wanting to get out,she decided to do a plan.
We went swimming the next day,then she told me that the swimming pool have place to escape...We swam for a few moments before carrying out this plan.
That's how I get caught AGAIN!

Luckily it's just a dream,or I'll die of suffocation..hehe:P

Once in this year,let my heart out!

Today was kinda rush for me cause i was late for it...i woke up at 9.45,9.50 to be exact.I rushed there after bathing :P

The tution was boring cause only me & teacher...this guy teacher i so lame,jokes were cold too...

After tution rush to buy breakfast,hungry until stomach flat!!!(sob sob) :{ then go woodlands find the others.When i reach they weren't there,you know where they were?they were buying bubble tea! (hummph!)
People who went to ESCAPE:Jonathan,Kane,Isaiah di,SiYuan,Serene Twinie & ME!

The journey there was damn boring...Jonathan sat with Serene,behind them was Kane and me,behind me was Isaiah...Kane and i alot of commotion from Woodlands to dont know where...forget le... :P.On the busIsaiah keep ka-jiao me from behind really can stand him at times..bully me(old woman)...

The first thing when they went into the theme park,was going into the "Haunted House"...I didnt went in...but when they all came out,they say very scary and eveything change...At the entrance say "pirate Ship" was closed due to some maintence thingy,but it wasnt like this...but we played "Go Kart"Jon intiated to drive with Serene,Kane intiated to drive with me so left SiYuan with Isaiah...Then when the person-in-charge came,he said your partner must be at least 18,Isaiah & SiYuan became dissappointed & when out...It wa kinda surprsing that he intiated!Kane never brake one lor...keep hittng the accelerator...when parking also like that lor...haiyo...but was fun,the last time i played when was K1,with mummy...After that,go Inverter,first time i keep screaming...second time was nothing much,i didnt scream...Isaiah's veins near the eye was like going to burst any moment...

As promised,I played the "Pirate Ship"...First time,I scream lke hell cause me,SiYuan&Serene were sittig on the back seat,on the opposite ends sitted Jonathan,Isaiah&Kane...Scream my heart oout...comfortable after the scream...haaaa...never had that feeling before...this means I had too much stuff in my heart...second time,we no chioe have to sit in the center's second row...though it's still high,i ddnt scream but because of Serene,she made me scream keep facing me and scream...haiyo...Serene,how cute!

Went home after that the secong time for the "Prate Ship"cause really very late le(for my dad)cause i actually said i would leave at 4...but in the end,i left there at about 6.30...

Ps,never take any pictures...

Back at one

Back At One
It's undeniable that we should be together
It's unbelievable how I used to say that out for never
The basis that need to know if don't know just how I feel
Then let me show you how that I'm for real
If all things in time I will reveal
Yeah
One, to make a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl its plain to see
That you're the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
So incredible the way things work themselves out
And all emotional once you know what it's all about babe
And undesirable for us to be apart
Never would have made it very far
Cause you know you got the keys to my heart
Cause one, Your like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl its plain to see
That you're the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'

Fell In Love with this song when i went malaysia-Johor's Jusco...It was there playing...so nice lor
Recommended!!!

What is love?It's a painful feeling..

Why is love painful?Because the person I love have left me...

Why does the person you love leaves you..?Because the person I love doesnt feel the same way...

Talking aout y past again...

One of my Kor talked with me through a conversation then talk until relationship thingy then I told him I'm not ready to get into relationship yet cause he asked me to give Lewis a chance.
Then I tell my past that caused me un-ready,he asked me to share,so I shared.
I typed until I started recalling and so started to cry.
It's not easy as you think when you asked me to start a relationship again do you know I have to cry in the night to get a bright smile in the day in the past,it's real pain.女人真的不易做啊,咳,sometimes I feel that I'm really a failure.
Just...hais.
Say I dont care is fake,HOW CAN I DONT CARE?
If I dont care,my world will be crushing down!!!
But I know I wouldnt fall so easily cause I have my gans with me,my mum guiding from above and church friends...thank you all,I'll rmb this in my entire life!

A sudden urge to tear,
A sudden felt of pain,
A sudden you;appeared'
A sudden you;disappeared,
A sudden felt of lost because of you.
I always thought you have already walked out of my life
But why,once again stole my heart again
And now abandon me again.
Now,I can finally understand those who are being "thrown away after use"...
Since you want to leave le,why leave a scar behind,reminding of our past
And now,I cant concentrate,AND IT'S BECAUSE OF YOU!
I given you up but you stil wandering around me,why do that?!
Do you know you are trying to be cruel to me?
I hate you for that!I really do!
Maybe it's not about forgetting the love,
But about remembering the love.
You are so mean!I tear for you,
Come to think of it;I'm stupid enough to do so,
But I just cant help it!
Just remove this charm that you had cast on me!PLEASE,I BEG OF YOU!
Get the hell out of my life!
I want my life back,it's real stupid just to think of it,seriously!

Still reading on Low Kay Hwa's "To Forget You"...The first few pages already made me cry like a river flows...sooo fantasy nia,I don;t think it'll happen in reality lor...
Early in the morning had breakfast with the Kong family cause today is Min Jie's birthday...

Happy 10th Birthday,Min Jie

Before meeting for breakfast,Bo Jing wanted to give some gift for Min Jie,but my dad dislike the gift that my brother was going to give so they started their quarrelling,god!Can't stand them lor...My brother then pull a long face after that...haiyo...We went East Coast to rent bike to ride...screams are heard...again,from me,as usual...but this time my scream scared off a little boy,and they think that it was I who knock him down...but didn't...he panicked too when I screamed...haha
Visited my godfather after that,around 2-3plus pm at Genaral Hospital...he said that tmr he is having an operation to remove something that cause destruction to the flowing of blood and the operation will last about 4hours..so long nia...kinda worried for him,but he still puts on that happy face...If it was me,I wouldn't smile liao,in fact I will be worried...

Everyone has a gift from God;a talent from God
and me,though my gift isnt able to comfort people well
but i'm glad that God gave me friends!!!
Count our blessings,the bible said so...simple blessing will do
I feel blessed and contented so I'm happy...

Today Sports Day again...I've got two more items to complete...today gone darker as well...sian...now black-black liao (sob sob)

The reason why you never cross my mind is because;
You’re always on my mind.
The reason why I don’t like you is because;
I Love You.
The reason why I don’t want you is because;
I Need You.
The reason why I wouldn’t cry if you left is because;
I would DIE if you left.
The reason I wouldn’t live for you is because;
I would die for you.
The reason why I’m not willing to do anything for you is because;
I would do EVERYTHING for you.
And the reason why I chose my life is because;
YOU’RE MY LIFE…

I'm Lifeless without you though I still have to carry on in life.

A video I watched...and It has almost the same story as I've seen in a musical.
[I Love You]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FaGxNsCo8wU&feature=related

And another clip that I think you should watch as well;
[How Much Do You Love Me?]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-HE_qbsq2A&feature=related

And I just watched Belinda there de video..toushes me too...tears start to flow you know...so gan ren



Love.
It can be blissful but, also your worst nightmare.
There is no one that can win at love, including me...
Don't let love be your biggest regret.
If only I had waited.
Maybe then I would've lived to hear him say...
"I Love You"
If Only...I could turn the hands of time...


Today's post all love love thingy...dunno why hahahas

Today though I had fun,but before going out with Serene,Jonathan and Isaiah;I abit don't want to go cause scared sian but in the end still go.In fact,now I regret why I had this thought...haiyo,dear me...haha :P

I meet Serene at her doorstep as usual...then we walk to plaza to wait for Jonathan.After he come,we decided to go Long John Silver to eat...I didnt eat the things there.I ate some sushi...Oyishi nes der!It was a surprise to see WeiLi working there.haha lol...she say that I'm going to get it from her,lol,I never disturb her nia...dotz...After that came Isaiah...We were like crazy kiaans there..siao siao de...hehheh...Saw Judy,Kimberly,Cynthia and Elishe at Long John Silvers but is after Jonathan had eaten half way le.

We took 961 to the place...and I seriously forgotten where was it...but I still remember that in the bus also abit siao siao...haha

Aiya,Overall,Perfect but Today isn't my day la maybe

Exams are finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
had a day that we are yearned for but this year we like no mood maybe because this year is streaming year...lol..hope that everyone got good results,...so...god bless and good luck!!!

Hi,back to post
my return will be quite shocking...cause you all know that I only wanna post after exams
feeling bored but no choice
since it's EOY,I've to strive for the best...won't let you disappoint,mum...
go back study le,bye