My Own Birthday Gift

Finished scanning the photos in but not all I've resized...This is one of the photos taken...Spent 200/300 can't remember as an 18th birthday gift for myself...hmmm worth it I guess..Since it's the thing I've always wanted since young..Even though it's not a professional family photoshoot, at least I myself got one! 

Is it just me or is everybody drifting away? I feel that we aren't that close anymore..RP have their RP conversation while JC have their JC conversation...like I dont know...maybe Im just too sensitive plus I guess I didn't have the time to go understand them. Hais, I don't understand a single thing they were talking..

Im quite stressed up about my course..I really can't wait for semester break..honestly, even if this isn't what Im going to do in the future, I will still persevere..It may be of use. 

The last assignment from Wayne...have no idea how to start, mentally broke down when I took that assignment from him. Of all the 9 designs, this was the most difficult. Make a model out from the picture shown?! Then take a photo which matches the picture given by him. The weightage of the photo is 80% while the model is only 20%... This due this coming Friday, and I have yet to start...IM DOOMED!!! 

First modelmaking assignments with everything needed. I know its not very nice but I tried my best. Wayne didn't say anything about the grade...hais.really wanna know my grades...say he next week then give the last assignment of the semester, say get a good rest this week...Indeed, need a good rest...had not had a good rest for the entire week...Need a physical & mental rest...

Stopping working for the time being, really cannot take it anymore...oh my...Semester break, please come soon... and i really hope the assignment from Wayne wouldn't be that difficult

Didn't see doctor I let my illness heal by itself...this time it took a long time...one week plus..wow...hmmm...just cough, no fever..sian...really want to have a big bomb sickness...

Recently, went back to WSSS to visit Ms Chia...the art students are giving her lots of problem nia....jio people to give Ms Chia surprise in the end in the one who don't know how to organize things

I miss him...

Yesterday in church, when we had eye contact, my heart didn't even skip a beat! It really only goes to show TL took the entire heart of mine...or at least i feel neutral about Amos now. 

Really really miss him...was crazy to even go out and find him...wanted to call him but I hung up...I won't mind if im forged to watch over him from far but at least I get to see him...

You aren't there when I needed you...its okay..but please say you need me?

Hais

Totally made daddy upset...

This was what happen...
After work my work people & i went super @ HandleBar..chatted until very long..about until 2+...
Decided to ask my dad to fetch.. In the end he got super angry..say so late already still outside...im a girl...he should be notified about such stuff..say if anything happen to me all our relatives will blame it on him...say such stress is pressing him heavily...say I never tried to understand him
Manager sent me to Marymount so that he can fetch me from there. When reached, hopped on his taxi and he started his lecture about 15mins non stop. After that then we started noving. He raced the taxi like mad, 120km/h! Evertime when come to traffic he'll continue his lecture.

Reached home at 3..Hais..my mood has gotten worser...how I wish I get the chance to be drunk

Current lives

It's been some time since I posted..It's my school term break now...oh boy you have no idea how happy I am..
Few days ago just met at with my secondary classmates for a BBQ @ BLK 402..Sec 5 gathering..looking at all the changes..I was too shocked...all turned prettier & good looking :)


Someone asked me "Are you proud to be a NYP student?" I replied " No, not yet"..Honestly I still want to be in other polytechnics. After these 2 months of school my answer is still the same..It's not because of my course..Okay maybe a little because of my course. Keep facing a lot of rejections to my work..so much critics and bad stuff but in between comes a little sweetness. 


I really think it's about time I give you, Amos up, but I know it's gonna be hard. It's been 5 years? The problem is I must be blind, you're not even my type of guy. The guy I want to be by my side must not be passive but you are. Plus it all happen in split seconds I don't even know where these sparks come from. I'm not Like Siyuan, able to like Jing for a freaking 9 years. Like almost the whole church know I liked you but you never had answers to it. Were you too slow to answer or you're just being  cruel. Please don't be the second Hankun. I cant take anymore such nonsense. 


Recently Terry asked me to be his girlfriend. I'm willing to consider it and forget about you. 


Still thinking what to write...have lots to say but I seem to forget...so I'll write until here for now..

Major Problem

I have a big big problem now... and that is I MIGHT NOT HAVE A COURSE TO GO!

Today, during orientation registration, I couldn't find my name on the list so they ask me join any group available first. Okay, so i go with the flow then until when give out timetable I dont find my name around,AGAIN. Okay so means I have no place in SID?! y heart totally sank and I felt lost suddenly. My soul was like gone. Tears start flowing non-stop. I was terrified, really. I couldn't do anything cause I also dont have the admission card. My GL then say tomorrow call the course mentor up and also got Admission Office to see if I have the card or not. But I wanted to get it immediately but I dont have the documents required. :(

What if I really dont have poly to study in? My mind is messed up. Head is spinning. Im prying damn freaking hard. Why does it happen to me? And only me!? Of all people? 

My mouth hurts..

It hurts soo much!! My right-bottom wisdom tooth is taken out but I thought they will remove it as a whole but they didn't. Instead, they broke it..so sad...thought could keep it as memory :)

Now that numbness is gone, the pain comes. Actually the whole process wasn't pain. It's the drilling that sound scary only..first time surgery wasn't that bad after all..

Should I try opening a blogshop? I don't even know how to handle stuff but I wish to try..still considering..so much to consider. The supplies, the publicity, ...

Work have been so tiring for me even though the restaurant isn't very busy.. Isaiah haven't worked for long and he quitted, so weird there cause he's the one who intro me but now he no longer works there...

Thanks to SY iI get this chance to beautify my hair...so in love w my hair!! :) Okay, so now I owe people money :X It's less frizzle...not like last time...eeewwww! 

Went Batok to meet SY after finishing my chores at Woodlands...Went to the salon near by. Actually if I didn't do treatment, I wouldn't need to borrow money but I want the best for my hair :P Hehs, $150+ in total... Guess it's worth it?!

Got message from Dad that NYP package is here...so excited but at the same time worried...monetary problems..but it's okay? Everything will be fine? I know God has His plans and I trust Him, that's why I didn't appeal cause I strongly believe that He'll make a way out of it. 

Cell as usual 5 people; Charmaine, SY, Collin, Xinyi & me...but today we have Mitchell :) How sad is this...our age group suppose to be the most people. Others said our cell looks united but you're totally wrong! Cailing confirm leaving for FAITH, Joy is already there, Mitchell might just follow Cailing. Xinyi, Tina, Wesley & Shermin preparing for 'A's...busy. Wesley & Shermin like..hais I dont know, they come and leave as and when they come. It shouldn't be like that right?! Zhengbin, Minwei & Victor just dissappear. How pathetic is this? Zhengbin avoided texting me whenever i pry on him. I just wanted our cell to be united, is it that difficult?! Nathan won't be back so soon..hais...Please come back soon! 

好累。。厌倦了

有他这样的爸爸是福还是甾？

我真的不能支撑下去了。我很累。一直被周围的人压但他始终不听。

如果跟他拿钱有那么简单，事情就好谈多了。对自己的儿女那么吝啬但对自己喜欢的东西就那么大方。真是受不了!

真觉得自己很可悲。跟被人说此事又不妥当因为那个人不喜欢。我好辛苦啊! 他的儿女不比钱重要吗?

亲戚都说他没救了。我还抱着一丝希望，希望他不会那么死板吝啬。。。不可能

要我跟他说若我要回去住就要加我一天的费用。。。这怎么可能!! 一天 $25 啊! 我现在一个星期的费用才 $40。

妈妈为什么要丢我一个人承受这些? 弟弟还小，怎么可能会懂这些啊?

请您来接我吧，离开这里。。。

对这个人。。。我已放弃了任何念头。有太多对他的不满，但现在已经不重要了。。。

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Will everything be okay?

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Its been quite awhile since I last posted something? Just some rants that im going to post today..

Went out w SY to imm and saw that huge stich in pms shop...damn soft ls...hais but I didnt bring money...just then I thought of the stich I bought for Jarrod...

He asked me out to talk this coming Monday at his house..it has to end it now...be it good or bad...dont wanna continue drag things. Plus his impression of me..i gotta clear.

The 19s finished 'A's..so guys go NS after that...cant wait to see them botak!! Only recently I got to talk to Amos...it only started because Terence, SY, Tina helped me wrote a letter to Amos..the awkwardness is still there but its okay...itll get better?

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Tomorrow 1735 is having a CNY steamboat event..being part of the 1735 team now...have to plan such events w the rest..extra responsibility.




The promise to mummy cannot never be realised..pogoshipo...

2012

Happy New Year!
Will I be able to welcome 2012 with wide arms?! Oh well Even if I can't, it just came..